Wednesday, February 18, 2009

My Prince and I on a ride of emotions...

I am learning that this experience isn't just a noun labeled "heart attack"....but much more a verb....a journey.  A journey with waves of fear, sadness, hope, patience, confusion, hope, laugher, exhaustion, hope, anger, frustration, hope, gratitude, peacefulness, 
panic, relief, joy, hope, trust, surrender, fear, hope, fear, hope, fear, hope.

My prince had his triple by-pass open heart surgery yesterday and he came through it just wonderfully.  His sister, her husband, two of our daughters, and our newest grand baby Kenley....and me, all followed him into the operating room. 
hope, laughter, trust, fear, hope

Then off we went into the infamous waiting room.  Waiting...waiting...waiting.....
hope, fear, hope, trust, exhaustion, confusion, hope

The doctor finally came out and told me that he did very well....his heart has enlarged some
( not too sure what they means yet ) but everything went well.  
Relief, gratitude, joy

Then I went into the recovery room.....
panic, fear, confusion, apprehension, agitation, hope

My Prince had tubes everywhere including a breathing tube stuck down his throat.  
But the worst was to see him so vulnerable, frightened and fragile......his body supported by machines.  We stayed until we were sure he was stable and sleeping and are getting ready for our journey back to the hospital this morning.

And through it all I have had the experience of connection and being held in the invisable arms of energy, positivity, and love.

Gratitude, thankfulness, appreciation, surrender.


17 comments:

Light and Shadow Studio said...

Hi Marilyn, You don't know me but I am a big fan of your work. Just beautiful. I was so glad to hear your husbands operation went so well. I have been in the exact same situation ( husband's cancer operation) and know all the emotions you go through. So my heart goes out to you. Here's to a speedy recovery. Take care of yourself too. Tammy

Mo'a said...

Good to hear that the operation went well.
It is great that you have family around you.
Take care of you my friend. xoxoo

Shashi Nayagam said...

Marilyn, keep the hope trust and love and all the positive thoughts going. Glad to know his operation was successful. The biggest hurdle is over. Take care and will keep sending you prayers and white lights for your hubby to recover quickly.

Catherine R. said...

Marilyn,

Thank you for updating us! Fewww... I am glad that part of the journey is over for Gary and now he is on his way to a speedy recovery! That is such a blessing that so many members of your family could be there to support each other and Gary through his surgery and recovery! What a blessing family is. In the book "The Secret" there is a quote that says what you visualize you materialize...or something very close to that. So, keep thinking positivly and keep up the positive energy and all things good will come out of it! Take care of yourself and keep us posted on his progress!

xoxo,

Catherine

Gufobardo said...

I am with you and Gary!

Sue said...

(((Marilyn)))

I can only imagine the emotional rollercoaster you, Gary and your family have been on. What a blessing that you can all offer support and love to each other to help smooth the ride.

Such excellent news that Gary's surgery was a success! Hopefully now the rollercoaster will coast to a gentle stop as the healing and recovery begins.

Love

Sue

Mollamari said...

I am so sorry to hear about this terrible and frightening thing you have had to face, but I am so relieved things are getting better. I send you warm thoughts and strength in spirit.

3rdEyeMuse said...

am choosing this as my daily mantra till your prince gets the "all's well" report:

"hope, faith, hope, trust, love, love, love"

Jenn Klee said...

Glad to hear the surgery went fine, I'll be praying for his recovery.

Lea said...

It is so good to see Gary, Marilyn... so good to get this news... sending you all my love...

Lisa Gatz said...

It's nice to see your prince...Yes all that hope is a good thing and I believe creates healing.

Bless you all. Things will heal, Gary's heart, your emotions, all will heal.

hugs,
Lisa

Ulla said...

Hang in! The worst is over, now its time for both of you to heal together.
Sending my love...
Ulla

Tess said...

Marilyn, I have had you and your Prince in my thoughts many times over the past few days. It is so good to see that both of our loved ones came through surgery just fine. As another has said the journey of healing together is just beginning. I continue to pray your Prince will have a swift recovery. Blessings to you both.

Gail Lackey said...

Thanks for the update Marilyn, all fairytales have happy endings! Much love to you and Gary and the rest of your enchanted family!
Hugz,
your friend in all,
Gail

From This Moment to That said...

Thank goodness the op' is over and he is on the way to recovery! Many blessings to you and your family from me and mine in England!
Hugs
Jane

Lee W - The Way I See It said...

I'm glad to hear things are going well. I'm sure by now, the breathing tube is out, and soon you'll be amazed when they get yor hubby out of bed. The chest tubes usually come out in a day or so. Hang in there, make him to his breathing exercises, and he'll be back to the castle in no time!

Pearl said...

I just got out of the hospital too going through major surgery and I have been praying for you and your husband. Happy days for you that your surgery went so very well. so did mine.